I Saw God

I recently came face to face with a buck. Well, almost face to face. I was traveling home from work on a rural road soon after sunset. I approached an intersection, and suddenly, in my peripheral, I saw a large object dart to the edge of the road. I instantly reacted. My body tensed up and my eyes darted to the road’s edge and my rearview mirror. I gripped the steering wheel and my foot slammed on the brake. My heart beat like it was pounding out of my chest. I screamed; inwardly and outwardly.

After coming to a complete stop, I turned my head to face the object and recognized it as a large buck. My eyes seemed to bulge out of its sockets and fastened on the buck’s antlers, then later to its majestic stature. The buck stood still and calm, unbothered, as if nothing could disrupt who and what it was. My presence didn’t upset, bring fear, or alter its intention to cross the road. When the buck was ready, it chose to cross the road behind my truck. And in seconds, it was out of my view.

I sat at that intersection shaking. Thoughts of what could have happened raced across my mind. I gathered myself, cautiously looked in all directions, and slowly continued my journey home. My mind continued to race. I then remembered to breathe.

My inhale and exhale settled me. I heard God whisper, Tammi, breathe again. So, I did. God repeated his instruction, and I obeyed His whisper each time. He then began to pour wisdom into my spirit like an overflow of refreshing water. He allowed me to recall what I just experienced – this time with revelation, accompanied by a force of unmovable strength. The impact was undeniable. God consoled me and His creation was reborn.

I saw God that day. God showed me His majesty, protection, power, and provision – yet again. He has sustained me and has allowed me to walk in stillness, no matter the terrain, for such a time as this. God’s got me. I’m mighty grateful!

God is intentional in ways that get our attention. When He reveals Himself, we are wise not to dismiss Him. Instead, we should lean in closer in hopes of receiving a fresh perspective. No one is exempt from the refilling God offers. We all need to see God for who and what He is. 

Who is like you, O Lord, among the gods? Who is like you, majestic in holiness, awesome in glorious deeds, doing wonders? – Exodus 15:11

Exhale

‘It’ came out of nowhere and disrupted my plans. I perceived ‘it’ to be disastrous and described it as horrendous, then suddenly recognized ‘it’ came from God’s hand. My rush of selfishness almost prevented me from experiencing the move of God in a miraculous and unexpected way. The pivotal light bulb moment came when I stopped my complaining, stopped replaying the events and emotions of my disaster, and took a deep breath. I exhaled.  It felt so good, I did it again. And as quickly as I released another breath the intricacies of my ordeal forcibly rushed into the newly liberated corners of my mind. Without hesitation and with specific intent, I exhaled once more. I felt my spirit uncoil from its grimacing state and felt the grace of wings flutter within me warding off what was no longer welcome, allowing God’s voice and warmth to fill every empty space. God is clear. He can move through anything and anyone to remind us of His covenant with us. He will do it, not to harm, but to offer us a future and a hope. Therefore, we must give Him our undivided attention. When we slip away from that directive we can exhale to regain a new perspective of our situation. Exhale as often as needed. In the beginning, the breath of God, by the thrust of words from His mouth, made all things good. His goodness is available to us in our most uncomfortable moments with the help of our own breath. Breathe in, breathe out. And repeat as often as needed. Your heart will rejoice and your gratitude to God will overflow and bring you peace with a new mind. God is relentless in His love for us and committed to His covenant with us!

“He is the Lord our God; his judgments are in all the earth. He remembers his covenant forever, the word that he commanded, for a thousand generations,” – Psalms 105:7-8 English Standard Version