I see you. Lately, you’ve been moving about each day on auto-pilot. You haven’t quite said the words, ‘I’m fed up’; however, your heart screams the words loud and clear. You’re disappointed, worn and bothered and even though there are people who say they care for you, you still feel distinctly alone. And then there’s that sharp nagging force pulling on you, not allowing you to rest. Fatigue has become your constant companion and that sharp nagging, well; you’re immune to it now. Nothing is as it should be. I see you.
Nearly a year ago, a very special woman in my life passed away. She was 102 years old and she was my heart. We were not related by blood, but we claimed each other, along with my husband and children, as family. I miss her terribly. I miss the safety of her living room, the comfort of her couch, our hearty laughs together that gave her eyes a squeeze and her mouth a holler, her delicious sweet potato soufflé, and in difficult times her telling me not to cry while tears fell from her eyes. Her life’s witness and testimony came from the instruction of ‘the Master’ – “My child, there’s work for you to do.” When she didn’t think she could go on, she said she could hear the Master say, “My child, there’s work for you to do.” As much as she wanted to throw her hands up, she said she chose to be obedient to the persistent voice of the Master. Her obedience to God got her through the seemingly impossible and it was her tool for survival.
2 Corinthians 4:8-10 says, “We’ve been surrounded and battered by troubles, but we’re not demoralized; we’re not sure what to do, but we know that God knows what to do; we’ve been spiritually terrorized, but God hasn’t left our side; we’ve been thrown down, but we haven’t broken. What they did to Jesus, they do to us—trial and torture, mockery and murder; what Jesus did among them, he does in us—he lives!“ (The Message Bible)
So that nagging pull you’ve been experiencing…its God getting your attention. Yes, you’re troubled, persecuted and torn but God is tugging at you, reminding you that He lives, giving you hope to face another day. Obey God’s persistent call. There’s still work for you to do. You can and will survive this season.
I see you. You are not alone. I’m praying for you. I need you to survive.